Song1.

some say suddenly it will appear
falling from the sky and then disappear
followed by swimming in flames
followed by footmarks that dysfunction
all going down and flashing in your eyes
when it all may change and your coming down to earth
i want to scream untill you appear appear appear..
one word and suddenly your all very near..
portals through the wall and dimension sound to the ear..
its all very crazy while you watch it all purely weird..
destination is the fire between us..
communications you reach the pieces fit very..
rediscover the train that comes from the black tunnel..
i stand aloud and watch it fall away..
i put my ring of the second blessing..
strength comes to communication..
i lost the will to see.
i felt it was all over for me.
still shadows and colors that are.
shall come the day when they all again appear appear appear.

i wanted to scream and listen to nonsensical music.

...

"I lose my self completely...
..and can find no words to say.
Yet, one thing, your voice..
still remains, still remains.."

whatever happens i will obtain power.

you live for a reason.
to have someone acknowledge you.
to make friends that will betray you.
to be in the darkness of someone's love.

i remember yesterday the wind was blowing.
the leaves were wiggling and the clouds were gray.
and i was thinking while i was alone.
that many times a feeling comes when you are alone.
and you cry for not being able to express it to another.
like something you believed in always.
has turned its back on you.

dedicated to the loss of the uchiha clan.

lame convos.

Kira :dude
Kira :have a shower already
The Alchemist :hey man...
The Alchemist :dude
The Alchemist :i maria enna paei sinavlia
Kira :bravo tis?
The Alchemist :heh
The Alchemist :dude...
The Alchemist :en polla tis modas ta reunions twra
Kira :dude exi 28 ores p ime ksipnios
Kira :alla en 8elo na pao na peso
The Alchemist :dude eprose3es oti laloume asxeta pramtaa
Kira :nai k i amoivada enen parasito btw
The Alchemist :i know
The Alchemist :but humans are
Kira :man panta to oneiro m itan na kamno fouskoues me tis pisses
The Alchemist :alla en ta kataferneis
The Alchemist :dude
The Alchemist :to oneiro twn epomenwn 45 leptwn m
The Alchemist :einai na dw stargate
Kira :dude
Kira :skeftou na 8oreis oneiro pos 8oreis stargate
Kira :k meta na ksipnas kai na exei stargate
The Alchemist :ti simptwsi ontws
Kira :dude
Kira :skeftou na 8oreis oneiro a girl
Kira :k molis ksipnas na sou stellei minima
The Alchemist :k na s leei kati
The Alchemist :k na s hurt ur feelings
Kira :emm oi
Kira :na s leei
Kira :ou ekama la8os minima
Kira :sorry
The Alchemist :lol
The Alchemist :prwti fora stelnw msg se malaka
Kira :se malakA i se malAka?
The Alchemist :malAka
Kira :malaka
Kira :how do ppl live without stargate?
The Alchemist :dunno...
The Alchemist :but the must be very miserable
Kira :imagine ppl who dont watch naruto
Kira :they must be so gay
The Alchemist :i know ppl who watch naruto
The Alchemist :and they are gay
Kira :do u watch naruto?
The Alchemist :no
The Alchemist :but u do
Kira :yeah i do cos chicks dig it
Kira :which makes me a non-gay person
Kira :u on the other hand are a gaylord master and evoker of the leather panties
The Alchemist :leather panties...
The Alchemist :ahh...
The Alchemist :i prefer cotton panties though
Kira :i prefer thongs
Kira :with stripes
The Alchemist :hmm
The Alchemist :anws
The Alchemist :paw na dw lio stargate
The Alchemist :c ya laters man
Kira :okie
Kira :enjoy ur gay series
The Alchemist :gay AND useless series
Kira :whatever makes u happy
The Alchemist :oh
The Alchemist :and dude....
The Alchemist :i love her....
The Alchemist :byee...
Kira :me2 man...
Kira : cya..

copyrights The Alchemist, Kira .

all things come to an end.

am coming up only when november ends..
to wake you up one last time..
to see my face and smile..
show me what is outside these four walls..
wonder what heavens roads will look like..
when you're crouching and your feet burn..
and you crawl beneath the light..
but thats just sad thoughts..

they say when you are above the clouds..
and watching over her from a place far and wide..
you cannot set your soul free..
and bear in mind your loneliness..
upon the valley of the dreams..
someone must knock the door that leads to reality..
exchange your sorrow with hope..
and hope leaves when the sun sets the day..
and the waves crush the sand..

its december now and the days go by..
silently like still waters in a cold lake..
and leaves gliding towards the ripples..
the trees glow and birds show the their feathers..
a song to say goobye..
from too many you must choose..
the choosiest choice and tragic wonder of your mind..

mmmm.

orange is the color that brings depth to my universe..
loudly poems combine your ambitions..
throw away your intuitions..
as i watch before you fall..
loud the noise beckons from above..
i turn my head slowly..
songs from a long past memory crawl beneath the radio signals..
its all been done again..

rides the wind and comes towards me..
he stands atop the highest pyramid of sand..
and crashes his sword into the ground..
looks evil.. i take a moment and think..
i look at his clothes.. all worn out..brown and gray..
its strange... i can see green leaves on his shoulders..
"young boy have u not seen the terror of Galbadia..."
i might have asked a better question than my answers rarely give..
with spite i called upon my only remaining breath..
and told him..
"in truth i will bow to you and follow you to your quest, master"

immortalidade...

sunburn.

am i really that strong..to carry on..
to change my life..could you save me..
that feeling that i get for a moment or two...
terrorizes me.. it stings my mind..
a sound from a thousand birds..
i wake up from the cold..
when i am alone..
ashamed to take me outside..
but the sky is bright when i step up..
it doesn't fail my expectations..
its far away from me.. to catch..
through back alleys and closed doors..
jumping on emotions and falling into grass..
laying on the ground just to watch the sun...
i am alone and home..

and sunburns all over me.

rape.

playing with drums its raining outside..
along the dumb clouds rides a chilling wind..
an alchemist shows its power to the world..
and death looms large across the west..

i find it hard to taste the miracles of winter..
my senses entertain my single thought..
its contagious.. and reaches the deepest canyons of my soul..
am i the only one.. who sees into the mirror as it is..
equilibrium as far as the eye meets..
my appreciation of life takes a new meaning..

rape me.. rape me.. my friend.. again and again..

lolation.

lolation ruling the nation..
lolation runs deep into mind..
lolation where art thou near..
lolation makes grass disappear..
lolation shall fall into holy grail..
lolation bangs the drums..
lolation describes the way i feel..
lolation comes to past and leads the last..
lolation helps me think randomly and shuffle..
lolation likes McDonald's..
but in the end.. lolation loves us all...

lolation ruling the nation leading us into outbursted expiramentation of the earthly salutation.
best quote ever.

untitled.

remember.. remember the chill of november..
when suddenly stars will appear..
falling close to you and missing on your heart..
their light shall ever be clear..
begging to forget my mind runs..
this year I've stopped it..
accepting the past and onwards into the window..
that leads to tomorrow..
november.. november now comes my december...

sleep.

its that moment where you lay down in your bed alone..
its the moment when you take that minute to relax and think..
and you think you might just might get over it and sleep..
it fills you in and gets you high..
blue lights scream like poisoned men..
they are locked away into nothingness..
i need to find someone who can hear my mind..
way out there in the distance where i can sleep...

Below the surface

tell me once again whats bellow the surface bleeding..
if your white dreams have vanquished..
if everything is wrong and hope leaves..
promises are easy..through all that may come and go..
even if you're far away in the long distance..
its so hard to find the words to say..
your thoughts are standing still..
emotions hide behind you..
your instincts build walls around you..
help me to find my way out..

tender life.

life is short.. life is long..
every choice that you make will follow you to the end..
the meaning of life.. what is it?
you don't know.. your not the only one..
if life's long don't let your days go by..
if life's short learn from you mistakes..
face each day with your mind open wide..
give to yourself and to others..
whatever you decide follow it to the end..
find your meaning in others..
discover yourself and look to the future..
don't compromise with the outside world..
face your inner demons and angels and let them out to that world..
your answers lie within you..

i-pod shuffle rules.

let me show you the picture..
you are walking down a road at night..
its dark as the clouds cover the moon and the lights are down..
you are listening to your i-pod shuffle...
and come across a track you haven't heard in a while..
it brings back memories and u start feeling nostalgic...
circumstances appear to remind you of participants...
they summon your personal inner images...
that song articulates a moment in time...
in turn the echo of the drums reach the moon..
beyond the madness you are indeed troubled..
you shuffle to the next song...

confusing stuff.

every now and then i come across some songs that remind me of my past phases in my life. i have lived not a long time nevertheless things were not always interesting. nothing really mattered in exception of sugar, coffee and cinnamon. these days i have got the perfect line- up for my life. my eyes are gazing back and turn away, this time they are actually looking to the future. of course when am talking about sugar and coffee i don't refer to their actual state of being. these are the passwords of my inclusive intelligence. fools gold and that golden road is sure a long one. its for you to find out what that is.

dedicated to my friend m.tm which i love to confuse

p.s: will get her to read it.

resurrection of a blind thought.

like a waterfall blinds my vision.
such a wild apparition.
sent to be put to the test.
when you're so much in love.
you don't know just how much you can stand.
intensity turns to despair?
support my acid daydreaming.
lay a carpet for my thoughts.
more or less a soundtrack to rule me.
my sonic youth remains unchallenged.
until the needle hits the groove.

withering heights.

cold leaves from a burning sand..
silence rides the wind to a brand new day..
high above where the mountains stay..
out of the fog that falls like his jealousy..
two hearts possessing the chateaus of the withering heights..
the only master in the room.. comes back as a butterfly..
to his home as clear as u see the rain from a window..
its clear.. its me into your window..

touch of evil.

everytime he met a girl he felt a bolt in his gut..
from that first time his mind forgot to follow his logic..
emotion blew him over... illusions of possession and desire..
since then every fantasy has been a scrambled version of that first meeting..
every time he met a girl he felt it was the beginning of a sad and heartbreaking story..
when he least expected... a smile when he was thinking..
a laugh turned into silence.. and shaking with fear..
arousing his mind with the sense of desire..
progressively exchanging his thoughts with mindless reaction..
he cant fool the fathoms of the sand..

the touch of evil.

my desert island top-five songs about heartbreak and rejection are as follows..

1.13th floor elevators - you're gonna miss me.
2.The Velvet Underground - Who loves the sun.
3.Led Zeppelin - Since iv'e been loving you.
4.Sting - Every little thing she does.
5.Guns n' Roses - You can't put your arms around a memory.

top-five lists are subjected to change.
any suggestions will be welcome.

doing gay things in front of some girl-friends.

Al- dude..do you remember yoshi?
Clive- ofcourse.. i used to play when i was in the army.
Al- what like 3 hundred years ago?
Clive- 3 years ago.. yoshi's island on game boy advance.
Al- yoshi from super mario man!
Clive- what are you doing?
Al- am taking pictures of my dog..
Clive- dude that pic is huge!
Al- i know.. i took it today..
Clive- nice man.. u have a camera? megapixels?
Al- 7.1.. with 6x zoom.
Clive- nice.. i bet you can zoom into boobies.
Al- lol.. how did u know?
Clive- dude.. i invented zoom on boobies.
Al- i could see boobies from 100 metres distance in the summer with my cam.
Clive- i remember one time this girl-friend of mine was complaining her boobs were uneven.. so i told her... let me feel them and ill tell u my opinion.
Al- omg dude..
Clive- it was hard work man..
Al- but u succeded..
Clive- yefs.. she was happy afterwards... hey u think i should write a blog about boobs?
Al- sure man... dude.. last night i was doing gay stuff in front of some girls.
Clive- you were what?
Al- gay things.. doing gay things..
Clive- as in what?
Al- well.. i was walking like a girl.. and i was holding a girlish bag.
Clive- you must be popular now...
Al- yeah they know me..
Clive- dude.. have u ever felt a foot in your ass?

copyrights of Kira and The Alchemist. 28/10/2007

Getting up on a deaf and cold saturday morning to go work..
mingle with the people once again..
forget my identity.. oh wait its already noon..
vision and confusion as i wake up..
ill need some coffee to erase the black and white..
butterflies in my eyes again.. frustration..
it takes some time for my mind to start ticking..
but i just want to relax.. dont wanna go to work..
there the world spins and never stops..
i cant rewind and forward my emotions..
am in a fixed enviroment.. where insurance is a must..
patience.. only sense i need this time..
goodbye blue sky.. ill see you again this night..

cronicles of a rotten job. post.1

frape.period.

frape is the magical earthly divine possession of the world we are living in..
love can be an end but frape always will be there..
in your darkest most broken moments.. at the hands of your suffering..
it will make you feel alive..
it understands your world you are living in..
frape can be anything.. it can change you..
a friend told me once she didn't like frape..
another page.. maybe another door.. you may choose not frape..
but be sure your heart yearns for that soft foam.. the ice upon the flesh of brownish sugar..
the thin straw waiting for the bite.. the ripped water following the cold glass..
sincerity cries out.. wanting to access my soul..
frape i will always love you...

pointless whatsonever.

after a long and truthful summer filled of dreams and desires came the fall..
usually at the end of summer i become an oyster and keep my self lost in the crowd..
November becomes my regression and depression month and i feel safe beneath my dark light..
this time its a bit different.. I've let my self down.. I've become a part of the world..
i started working.. i aid and abet to the miracle of co-operation which leads to misery and makes us putrescible in our own minds..

running along these thoughts i feel good to just ignore the sad soundtrack of the people surrounding me and put my headphones to exalt to my own music..
when i start writing i always confuse my mind and end up making no point whatsoever..
music always comes into my thoughts and corrodes them..
i try being philosophical but thats just tiring..

and where was i? oh yes at the end of summer..
promising summer that was.. rotten to the core of excitement..
september came.. university started.. back in the mindless ssw's and cow parades..(mtm ;p)
at least this year i have become a bit selfish.. i don't care about anyone..
the fact that am writing this kinda makes me care.. but as all the great philosophers say..
u cant run away from something u don't acknowledge..
nevertheless i acknowledge the cow parade.. but am not running this time..
its just something i can ignore.. and that makes me content about my life..

and hey am still young and rebellious..
i have many years ahead of me to act like a diseased scholar who thinks he knows something..
so november is getting closer and am actually not very depressed..
which is a cause of concern.. should i change me depressing habits ..?
and the cause of that is a hobbit would you believe.. maybe so but time will tell..

they say that your fate stops following you once you turn to the path..
that leads to awakening your inner self.. and realizing who you really are..
there you are free and reconcile with your true self..
and so aren't subjected to any pre-emptive strike from your so called fate..

and after making no point to this monologue i return to my album reviewing.

p.s. like my friend and grasshopper alchemist, i don't like paragraphs..

regressions of a pissed-off mind.

pissed off..whats that feeling?
the feeling that you for no apparent reason fail to live up to the social image..
you instantly become a black sheep.. people crucify you and put stamps on you..
what have you done wrong?
you were just being your weird self.. with your own personality..
well too bad i aint a trendful, cheery, stupid and apish non-character.
regression of a peaceful mind once turned to insanity..
in a world full of hate i will always come first.. i hate you all.


Quotation of last line "adam-kun"

the living and the invinsible.

the living are walking down the road of loneliness searching for someone to pardon them for their mysterious kingdom of dreams..
some people use stealth, they appear from nowhere and descend upon you..
you have either the choice to accept their calling and explore their universe..
or deny their dream and cast them away..

i my self am a stealth type person nevertheless i seldomly descent upon anyone..
i depend on my thoughts and daydream..
one minute staring at the world, i abuse the idiocracy of society and mock it..
i dont want to belong unless its my rules..
i find this driving me crazy..
am getting away from the living and plunge into the darkest steps of mordor with my ring of invinsibility..

reaching for the dream.

he walks ashamed throught paths of past..
his memories obtained again remind him..
that soon enough this dreams will pass..
the fire still burns and those around await him..
for this last goodbye they want to share..
do you still feel the water?
thats the only thing left..
before you fade away..
you try to reach her..she graps in thin air..
when dreams again shall fade away she will be there..

stupid mind tricks

Sammy-dude.. am so wasted..

Clive-candy is evil man..

Sammy-i think i've satisfied my sugar intake for my next 20 lives..

Clive-this is a phenomenal aspect of propaganda my friend.. they show you that sugar is supposed to energize you..but in the end it just brings you down man..

Sammy-why do kids go crazy when they eat sugar man?

Clive-kids are evil man..

Sammy-what.. no man.. kids are our innocent bloodline of the future..

Clive-i think deep down on the underground there is a kids foundation..and they made candy with a secret substance that only they can gain of..

Sammy-have you ever tried writing on your keyboard with chopsticks?

Clive-ya am doin it rihgt noaw but am nou vety good when am high.. it requires a high amount of skills and highness.

Sammy-aye... hey the cd player is busted..

Clive-What?..what happened?

Sammy-well i was trying.. well you see Leno told me that you can put 2 songs at the same time.. ya know.. and like.. synchronize them? and that it would sound really rad.. so i tried puting together two cd's..

Clive-man ur dumb..havent i told you not to listen to that guy?

Sammy-it seemed like a good idea man..

Clive-crap.. what am i gona listen tonight man? what kind of nong puts 2 cd's in a player? we have to go to the record store...oh my idiot savant brain please get me through this.

Narrator:Sammy and Clive arrive at the record store.

Sammy-what are we getting?Clive-a new cd player you ape.. geezys.. you got any money?

Sammy-i got 2 bucks.

Clive-dude i dont have any money why didnt you say so?

Sammy-i though we was going to get pretzels..

Clive-the moronity of your mind astonishes me even now.. momo the monkey has more brains that you ape.

Clive-there's some old ones at the back..maybe ill get Vinny to give us one.

Sammy-the new radiohead album is out man..

Clive-what? radiohead? i dont like those shaven apes.. they cry all the time.. Only good song is that street spirit and that they stole from Bittel SOlid.

Sammy-who are Bittel Solid..

Clive-only the greatest australian alternative band ever..few elite people may share their unearthly feelings.

Sammy-oh..Clive-anyhow lets ask Vinny.. and my god if i find Leno here am gona cap his apish ass.

Narrator:After aquiring their new old cd player Sammy and Clive return to their fortress.

Sammy-tonight is quiz time man..

Clive-alright i go first..name 5 alternative and or indie bands that were formed the year 1985 my inconsequential friend.

Sammy-errr.. Queen?

Clive-lolation in the nation man..i dunno.. who are queen?

Sammy-freddy!?Clive-i love that guy.. such a shame he went away..

Sammy-dude are we out of candy?

Clive-i gave it to the cat..

Sammy-oh good..wait..dude...


07 archives

Queen of Lies

they say that your fate stops following you when you come up this forsaken place..
i never believed them.."them"..who are they?
the queen of lies takes her spot between the people's eyes..
why do people try to get away from reality?
they themselves become slaves of the society they run away from..


07 archives.

Hubris and Nemesis.

am sitting in my chair this moody afternoon with nothing to do but trying to recollect my past thoughts..i am completely and utterly bored even so to the extent where i cant reach the mouse to search for a new song..its funny that when you have nothing to do you tend to think about the lesser things in life..
people work,run,shout,scream and lose themselves into the oblivion..todays modern society..but they like it..or they like to think they like it..its a universe where the stress of work and everyday life riddens them from their logic and issues a bitter,cold,sad soundtrack that they just ignore..
is it when your depressed that you really enjoy your favorite songs?
what came first says j.cusack..the music or the misery..
what became the social creauture that we call human?
has society with its roles and rules conducted the behavior of the social being..or have we created society with our free thinking and behavior?
how about the chicken and the egg?
what came first..did i listen to rock music beacuse i was miserable..or was i miserable because i listened to rock music?
i havent stopped listening so i guess its both.

a tale of two retards.

Sammy-is it done yet?
Clive-boredom is the self-requested imagination of your mind to find a better way of living.
Sammy-cut the nonsense and tell me..is it done yet?
Clive-to what alteration should your question arise i will not pity and or answer.
Sammy-dude are you high..dont tell me you finished the ..
Clive-so i was waiting for the rain to stop..then i thought..why do people fear the rain?is it not just water falling from the sky?the terror of soaking and the wet dirt on your shoes..what more could you ask from life but to experience effects naturally..i like sitting in the rain.
Sammy-yeah but u cant smoke any cigs man..i mean they gona get wet ya know?
Clive-man someone should make waterproof cigs..i remember this guy in his raincoat trying to light his cig..its rain and humidity versus fire..you should know that..it wont light..
Sammy-well..
Clive-what day is it?
Sammy-its sunday..morning..wait..why are we awake on a sunday morning?
Clive-sunday mornings are for the suburban folk who go and play golf and make barbecues and think their life is complete.
Sammy-what was the topic again..
Clive-well its finished if thats what you are refering to.
Sammy-dude..

log1 of tale.

Someday the dream will end.

may dream and night unite to catch a falling star..
to you whom they will sent and sing along the nightmares passed
stand alone and play the notes..inside your mind pure for evermost..
lights shine and shrivel your intentions..
do you feel the water?
do you feel the whisper of the wind?
does sand betray your eyes little boy?
and your alone again..what are you thinking..subsistence..who are you..deserted..
still reality before you..
would you speak for her sorrow..
shes gone away from this lie..
in your time of need..
when the clouds are late..and dream and night unite to catch ur falling star...
but they missed it...

courtesy of Solidus .persona and everlasting fan of Kira.

Stupid thoughts when depressing day arrives.

>>fall from the roof till i reach the ground
>>walk till my feet burn
>>drink champagne till i puke
>>think till my mind gets smarter
>>do push ups till im tired
>>watch tv till it brakes
>>go stand in the middle of a Highway till some car kills me
>>drink water till the world becomes a dessert
>>listen to music really loud till my ear drums fall off
>>scratch my nose till it rottens
>>sing really loud till the neighbours throw me tomatoes
>>sleep till i stop dreaming
>>play ps2 till i break the contoller or theres no more electricity in the world
>>go on diet till i become fat
>>eat cats till the are no more so i have to start eating dogs
>>ask every girl in the world on a date till i get a "yes"
>>drink beer till i dont see shit
>>play soccer till i get better
>>let my hair grow till i stamp on'em
>>stay in thibet till i think like dalai lama
>>listen to pop music till i believe that backstreet boys are the best
>>blow my nose till my brains come out
>>tie myself upside down till i fell right about it
>>play guitar till i learn how to
>>walk around till i find a million pounds down on the street
>>stay out in the sun till i become coal
>>love the one i love till she loves me back
>>clean the dishes till there's no more soap left
>>scream till i cant scream nomore
>>bite my hand till i feel no pain
>>be in sorrow till someone understands me
>>drive my car till a fuckin cop stops me
>>study Platonas n Aristotelis till i know them better than the teacher
>>look at a girl till i make her hate me
>>have fun till there's nothin left to do
>>lie till i feel bad bt it
>>live in anarchy till i die
>>listen to rock till i die
>>make my own rules till i die
>>be weird till i die
>>have my integrity till i die
>>help everyone i know till they dont appreciate it
>>knock knock on heavens door till i feel im knock knock knockin on heavens door
>>try to reach her till she gets out of my sight
>>cry till i sleep
>>try to see the sunshine till you bring the rain
>>never judge anyone till they judge me...
>>try to see it your way till i see it...

courtesy of Soli . persona and living fan of Kira-desu. archives from november 2005.

a great philosopher and pursuer of art once said: " Music is the.." ah screw it..am not gona start this blog with quotes or some old smart saying coming from a guy i never knew or havent lived and shared his dreams..vicarious existence is waste of time.
started work yesterday. beyond the darkness and into the world..i’ve been spending the past months of summer trying to get away from the world..being anti-social is not as bad as you may think. it helps you form a totally different eye for the world and society....or so u may think after fooling yourself your the messiah of your own life and you wont ever obey to society's wicked rules and trends.. and that only you really see the downfall of today's society. anyhow let’s not get started with the philosophical stuff…that’s for later...